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fan fiction!!! :)

Thu Dec 17, 2009, 6:09 PM
  • Mood: Adoration
  • Listening to: flyleaf
EDDIITTT!!!: so i wrote my fic like two weeks ago and its finally up on fanfiction. i love it although i want to make a few changes. PLEASE check it out if youre just as much of an RE dork as i am or if you want some holiday cheer :D

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okay so obviously this journal is going to be about fan fiction. i havent written any fan fics in so long, nor have i read any, so im like super excited to start writing them. i used to write only harry potter fics, but i have a few ideas in mind for video game characters sadly enough. for anyone who knows me knows that i have an obsession with the resident evil series. i have a few ideas in mind such as love storys between select characters, as well as a christmas party (which i am like squealing over i am so excited to write and my brother wants to punch me in the face because i wont shut up about it). i also plan on writing a legend of zelda fic featuring link obviously. so im like uber excited. wow i feel like a dork. anywho be on the lookout for my fics if you care. ill be posting them on my fan fiction account ( [link] ) once i clear the dust off it.

other than fan fiction, i hope everyone in the states had a wonderful turkey day yesterday. also im hoping to get some pictures editted or taken soon enough, and to write a few decent pieces of poetry. so yeah. ill be around. :peace:

on letting go.

Mon Nov 9, 2009, 4:46 PM
  • Mood: Adoration
  • Listening to: if it means a lot to you
I look at my life as a book that doesn't end until the day I die. As of this past Saturday, I've decided that I'm finally going to turn to the next page and start the next chapter of my life. It feels like I just skimmed Chapter 23 and barely touched the surface of the pages. I wish I could redo so much of last year except for one minor detail. And yet I'm still hovering on the last page of Chapter 23, like the last half page of the chapter. The part where the main character needs to clean a few things up before the author decides to move on to the next part of the novel. I feel like I've been re-reading the last sentence over and over again, and the narrator in my head keeps saying something on the lines of "Let go." Let go of what exactly? Well, pretty much everything that I've been keeping locked inside and putting off for the past year. Main example: fear. Fear is something that has run my life for far too long and I'm finally willing to fight back. I'm scared of literally fucking everything, and I'm not joking when I say my own shadow. Second example: accepting myself. I need to let go of all this shit that I've built around myself and need to stop caring or thinking that the entire world is judging me. "My name is Melanie. I will always love writing and painting my nails a million different colors. My dream sky is still indigo, I giggle at pretty much anything, and I'm pathetically sarcastic." And you know what, if you can't accept that, then fuck off because I'm growing so tired and wanting to change myself just because someone else told me to. Thirdly: friends. I have noticed that I have been losing friends as quickly as my brother is losing brain cells. Some of them I have been neglecting, several of them I have just lost contact with and I too chicken to call them up and ask to hang out. I used to have so many friends, but I pushed several of them away for my own personal reasons. My mother always says to make as many friends as you can, because you never know when you'll need them. Her words have rang true more than I like to admit. She also says that you shouldn't get yourself swallowed by other peoples issues. At first I thought that was a bitch thing to say, but I've started to understand what she meant. My mother is probably one of the strongest people I know, and I never give her enough credit. Lastly: love. I still have so much I need to learn about it. "We accept the love we think we deserve." Personally, I don't believe I deserve any love considering all the shit I've done to the people around me, but I know that I am loved, I just need to start accepting it. Overall, I need to become a better person for family, my friends, and most imporantly, myself. I need to snap myself out of this trance. It's been going on for far too long. In the words of Pat, "Don't give up on me, I'm about to come alive." (Or so I hope.)

I'd also like to address my writing for a moment. I dunno if any of my dedicated watchers have noticed, but my more recent pieces have grown to be more random, violent, and mostly apparent, sexual. I don't know why I'm suddenly focusing on violence and the sexual themes. I never plan out what I write. I never think about what I'm writing half the time. It just pours out of the pen and all the sudden I have a sheet of paper filled with random shit. But quite personally, I wouldn't have it any other way. I'm writing for myself and not so much for the people reading my work, and frankly, it feels amazing.

On an ending note, Flyleaf's new CD comes out tomorrow. Anyone else pumped? I sure as hell am.

features

Fri Oct 30, 2009, 8:16 PM
  • Mood: Adoration
So I figured I would do some features to pass the time and to ignore my anger. It's hard to narrow my watchers down because they are all so talented, but I thought these people needed to be noticed for their awesomness. I have two groups as usual: photographers/artists and writers.

Writers: 1)First off, I have need to recoginze a wonderful friend of mine, ~Voice-OF-charACTER He goes by the name of Joe, because that is his name. He writes beautiful songs and has such strong passion behind every piece. He is very passionate about what he does and loves all forms of art, as well as Lady Gaga. He is also probably one of the most entertaining and nicest people I know.

2)Second would have to be ~whnangelsdeserv2die. Mike has been there for me for a lot of shit and he also reminds me to chill out about a lot of things. He loves writing almost as much as his weapons and is actually a very sensitive under his intimidating surface. So if you like a mixture of harsh violent poetry and the ocassional love song, check him out.

3)Thirdly, ~ufo0l. He's brilliant. Enough said.

Photographers/Artists: 1)~cloakedinshadow I love her photography because of it's simplicity. She take wonderful pictures of cityscapes around Europe (which I am so jealous of) and her stilllife is always something to look forward to. You should totally check her out.

2) ~Hiroglycerin Because she is so fucking amazing. She's one of my best friends and she finds such relaxation in her work. It's all so unique. I wish she would pick up a paintbrush again sometime soon.

The Art of Hugging

Thu Mar 5, 2009, 12:05 PM
  • Mood: Adoration
What makes a good hug. There are a few things that are need to be put into consideration when it comes to a good hug.

1. Types of Hugs. In my opinion, there are three types of hugs: Friendly (which I will explain in detail later), intimate, and OMG! Hugs. Friendly hugs consist of four subcatagories: man-hugs, bear hugs, rocking hugs, and spinny hugs. Intimate hugs subcatagories: long/touchy feely (also includes running your fingers through the huggie’s hair) and run-and-leap (into arms) hug. Lastly, OMG! Hugs which will be explained and ignored later.

2. Never squeeze too tight or too gently. Don’t get me wrong, bear hugs are awesome, but not all the time. From experience, I dated this one guy who thought the harder you squeezed, the better the hug. He asked me on a scale from 1-10 (1 being unbearable) where his hugs fell, I was nice and gave him a 7. He really deserved a 3. If you care about the person, don’t hold back. There’s a different between a tight and a firm hug. Give them a nice firm hug where they feel safe in your arms instead of vunerable and annoyed.

3. Friendly Hugs. Man-hugs, bear hugs, rocking hugs, and spinny hugs. We’ll start out with the most awkward. Man-hugs. A man hug is between two “manly” men. This hug is usually awkward for one or the both of them (or entirely normal if they are very confident of their sexuality and/or are gay. But then again, if they were gay, they wouldn’t be having a man-hug. It would be an intimate hug.) But these man-hugs usually consist of the classic 2-3 pats on the back to symbolize the hug is over and that they want their space. Bear hugs are the back breakers (literally great for cracking your back) and are usually over within a few painful yet loving seconds. Rocking hugs last longer then most friendly hugs, but in my opinion, they are the most fun. I mean seriously, who doesn’t want to rock in place with someone you care about. It’s like dancing, but not. Spinny hugs are last. They are great but can make you very dizzy considering the speed and/or time of the hug.

4. OMG! Hugs are a major “no”. For those of you who don’t know what OMG! Hugs are, you’ve probably experieced them before. They’re the kind of hugs that are like this: OH MY GOD I HAVEN’T SEEN YOU FOR A TOTAL OF FIVE MINUTES!!! You witness many of these hugs in middle schools, high schools, and malls full of slutty pre-teens. They are the wost type of hug due to their fakeness. They hold no emotion behind them, so therefore, are lame. Although, I was pointed out to that “glomps” (aka run-and-attack) are a form of OMG! Hugs that are super acceptable.

5. Arm Placement. If you - the hugger - are taller then the person - the huggee - you are hugging, your arms lay over the huggee and basically swallow them in your arms. In some (most) cases though, the girl will wrap her arms around the guys neck, so she is basically hanging from his neck. But if you are shorter then the huggee, wrap your arms about their torso. (If you are a guy shorter then a girl, you are at perfect boob height.)

6. Time, Quanity, and Quality. Good hugs last for a while, but not too short and not too long. Three seconds is good for a friendly hug. An intimate hug, those should last for five to ten seconds. Hugs for a long lost friend or a friend in need, timeless. Quantity: The quanity also goes back to OMG! Hugs. DO NOT hug person every time they walk into a room. We need our space. Hugs are sacred and you should not abuse them by over hugging. Quality: This is the key. Basically if you follow everything I have stated above, the quality of your hugs should be fantastic, and you should be ready to “hug it out”.


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timeline

Wed Feb 11, 2009, 9:05 PM
  • Mood: Speechless
8 months ago
I met one of my best friends through spam.
I befriended the weird kid who liked me.
I finally let go of my biggest downfall.
I stargazed with an old friend until one in the morning.

7 months ago
I had my not-so-sweet sixteen.
I broke down twice in front of my friends.
I still struggled with my relationship with God.

6 months ago
My sister was in the hospital for four days
My grandmother got diagnosed with cancer.
My dad lost his job again.
I abandoned an entire group of friends.
My best friend moved away.

5 months ago
I dated the wrong guy.
My mother finally found out about me cutting.

4 months ago
I had a date to homecoming for the first time.
I went to homecoming with the wrong person.
I danced with the right person.
My grades went down the shithole.
I started talking to the weird kid every night.
I stopped reading and writing.
I remembered how to smile.

2 months ago
My sister told me she was clinically depressed.
My brother told me he was in love.
My brother graduated from college.
My family finally acknowledged how fucked up we are.
I’ve grown closer to my siblings more than ever before.
I realized I still struggle with cutting.

1 month ago
My brother moved out.
I decided to date the weird kid who turned out to be perfectly imperfect.
I hid it from my best friend.
I realized how much I need my friends.

24 hours ago
I fought with my best friend.
I realized I had made the right choice.
I suffered a severe case of the giggles.
My grandmother died.


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